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  • I'm a Futures Arts Fund Recipient!

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    All right! I got a $5,000 artist grant from the Futures Fund through the Chinese Culture Center.

    I was unaware that I got nominated by the Clarion Center. I got notified and had to submit a few examples of my artwork. A few weeks later I got a letter telling me I got the grant. There were a total of 28 of us grantees. No strings attached. Just a check for $5,000 for being a struggling artist in the community.

    I don't know where this money came from. To me $5,000 is not a lot of money. It would be great if it was $5,000 a month for the rest of my life. The money is already spoken for. I'm planning to purchase an electric mobility scooter so I can get around. I need an adjustable bed to keep my leg elevated when I'm asleep. I need another rollator walker. Hey...I'm not bitching. I'm glad I got the grant. Every little bit helps.

    Draw me a dragon

    They had a reception on May 4th at a new public housing community center by Sunnydale housing projects. They had me do a live dragon painting. It was a bbq with a program in the garden. I must say it was pretty cold *brrrrr* so was the food.

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    I took a Lyft to and back home. They are going to reimburse me for it.

  • News Call Bulletin route #X-18 1964

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    I had a News Call Bulletin route in 1964 while I was twelve years old in sixth grade while a elementary school student at Commodore Stockton. The News Call Bulletin was an afternoon newspaper right after school at 3:10 pm.

    The route number was X-18 and began on the corner of Stockton and Jackson Street in San Francisco Chinatown. It went down Jackson Street with about three places toward Grant Avenue. On Grant was the hotel on top of the Bank of America and the Jeung association on top of the five and dime store. Stopping at two places n Grant then continuing on to Jackson Street towards Kearny. Then going up Columbus Avenue towards Broadway St. Then back to Pacific Avenue ending at the 655 Ping Yuen.

    The manager was Henry C. Everett. He was a crook and skimmed money from my monthly pay. He took an advantage of us kids who didn't know how to get a money order from a bank to send to the News Call Bulletin office after we collected the monthly $2 subscription from the subscribers.

  • Pork Balls Rice Noodles Soup 2.0 豬肉球湯米粉 From The Chinatown Ghetto Kitchen

    Pork balls rice noodles

    I've been om the doghouse and I have to cook for myself.

    Pork balls Rice soup Noodles version 2.0
    From the Chinatown Ghetto Kitchen

    Boil rice noodles to al dente. Rinse with cold water to stop the cooking. Drain in colander. Set aside.

    Seasoned ground pork shoulder with a raw egg, a little corn starch, salt, garlic powder, chicken powder, and white pepper. Roll into balls.

    In a wok, brown onion, garlic, add rolled pork balls. Cook to brown.

    Add soy sauce, oyster sauce, water.

    Boil for five minutes. Add package of ramen soup or chicken powder seasoning, Sugar, cornstarch slurry to thicken. Your choice of blanched greens.

    Add boiling soup to cooked rice noodles. Top with chopped green onions. Chili oil. A couple of drops of sesame oil. A dab of fish sauce... (optional). Enjoy.

  • Get A Job

    Jackson street

    I tried employment a handful of times in my life.

    Getting to work by 8am on time was such a struggle and I was often late. Especially before being diagnosed with sleep apnea.

    Then putting up with supervisors and coworkers. I found that every workplace had its politics and culture which you had to fit in or be treated with scorn by supervisors and coworkers. I guess I have that personality where people like to fk with you... I'm too easy going. Or people feeling threatened by my knowledge and skills. They want to put me in my place.

    There was the side of me that kept on taking on work besides holding a job which kept me up after putting in a 8-5 job. There was no relaxing after work. I was burning the candle at both ends and often got very little sleep. I often nodded off at work and the coworkers would snitch on me.

    After getting let go or resigning it felt so good to be back in the driver's seat and in command of my own ship. But of course business and income was never consistent.

    Now that I'm a senior citizen, retired, broke and only dependent on a measly monthly social security check, I look back on my life and thinking how I fkdup like this. Most of my friends have a pension check from putting in twenty five to thirty years into a job. On top of that they get a sizeable social security check because they paid into the system all those years while working. They are retired very comfortably. Me being mostly self employed there's no pension. I didn't pay into social security. I often wonder if I should have just gotten a job and forget trying to be self employed. Would it have worked? Would I be happy?

    I understand why people go postal at the workplace. Having bad coworkers and supervisors that mess with your mind can really give you a feeling of entrapment. Putting up with it everyday makes you want to lash out. Adding stress to your life and causing sleepless nights. The job is what sustains you. Paying rent, paying bills, paying mortgage, paying for food on the table, paying for family, kid's education, the commute, etc. It can drive one nuts. I remember this supervisor that had a way of reprimanding me in front of all the co-workers to make me feel like an idiot. It made the coworkers look at me like I was crazy and ignore me.

    Anyway the OL bugs the hell out of me to this day and in my age and condition about getting a job. How I never worked a day in my life. I am a lazy bastard. How I should have driven a bus....blah blah blah. It's no use talking about it. I can only regret the decisions I made in my life. I often find myself fantasizing about traveling back in time to correct some mistakes.


    GET A JOB by the Silhouettes 1958

    Yip-yip-yip-yip-yip-yip, bmm
    Sha-na-na-na, sha-na-na-na-na, ahh-do
    Sha-na-na-na, sha-na-na-na-na, ahh-do
    Sha-na-na-na, sha-na-na-na-na, ahh-do
    Sha-na-na-na, sha-na-na-na-na

    Ahh, yip-yip-yip-yip-yip-yip-yip-yip
    Mum-mum-mum-mum-mum-mum, get a job
    Sha-na-na-na, sha-na-na-na-na

    Well every morning about this time (Sha-na-na-na, sha-na-na-na-na)
    She gets me out of bed, a-crying get a job (Sha-na-na-na, sha-na-na-na-na)
    After breakfast everyday she throws the want ads right my way
    And never fails to say - get a job

    Sha-na-na-na, sha-na-na-na-na, ahh-do
    Sha-na-na-na, sha-na-na-na-na, ahh-do
    Sha-na-na-na, sha-na-na-na-na, ahh-do
    Sha-na-na-na, sha-na-na-na-na

    Ahh, yip-yip-yip-yip-yip-yip-yip-yip
    Mum-mum-mum-mum-mum-mum, get a job
    Sha-na-na-na, sha-na-na-na-na

    Lord, and when I get the paper I read it through and through
    I, my girl never fail to see if there is any work for me...
    I got to go back to the house, hear that woman's mouth
    Preachin' and a cryin', tell me that I'm lyin' about a job
    That I never could find

    Sha-na-na-na, sha-na-na-na-na, ahh-do
    Sha-na-na-na, sha-na-na-na-na, ahh-do
    Sha-na-na-na, sha-na-na-na-na, ahh-do
    Sha-na-na-na, sha-na-na-na-na

    Ahh, yip-yip-yip-yip-yip-yip-yip-yip
    Mum-mum-mum-mum-mum-mum, get a job
    Sha-na-na-na, sha-na-na-na-na

    Lord, and when I get the paper I read it through and throu-ough
    I, my girl never fail to see if there is any work for me...
    I better go back to the house, hear that woman's mouth
    Preachin' and a cryin', tell me that I'm lyin' about a job
    That I never could find

    Sha-na-na-na, sha-na-na-na-na, ahh-do
    Sha-na-na-na, sha-na-na-na-na, ahh-do
    Sha-na-na-na, sha-na-na-na-na, ahh-do
    Sha-na-na-na, sha-na-na-na-na, ahh-do
    Sha-na-na-na...

  • My Medications Update

    nine medications

    Metformin: 850 mg 3 x daily. Metformin is used to treat high blood sugar levels that are caused by a type of diabetes mellitus or sugar diabetes called type 2 diabetes. With this type of diabetes, insulin produced by the pancreas is not able to get sugar into the cells of the body where it can work properly.

    Side effects: Nausea, vomiting, stomach upset, diarrhea, gas, weakness, or a metallic taste in the mouth may occur. If any of these effects last or get worse, tell your doctor or pharmacist promptly. If stomach symptoms return later (after taking the same dose for several days or weeks), tell your doctor right away. Stomach symptoms that occur after the first days of your treatment may be signs of lactic acidosis.

    Remember that this medication has been prescribed because your doctor has judged that the benefit to you is greater than the risk of side effects. Many people using this medication do not have serious side effects.

    Metformin does not usually cause low blood sugar (hypoglycemia). Low blood sugar may occur if this drug is prescribed with other diabetes medications, or if you do not consume enough calories from food, or if you do unusually heavy exercise. Talk with your doctor or pharmacist about whether the dose of your other diabetes medication(s) needs to be lowered.

    Symptoms of low blood sugar include sudden sweating, shaking, fast heartbeat, hunger, blurred vision, dizziness, or tingling hands/feet. It is a good habit to carry glucose tablets or gel to treat low blood sugar. If you don't have these reliable forms of glucose, rapidly raise your blood sugar by eating a quick source of sugar such as table sugar, honey, or candy, or drink fruit juice or non-diet soda. Tell your doctor right away about the reaction and the use of this product. Check with your doctor or pharmacist to find out what you should do if you miss a meal.

    Symptoms of high blood sugar (hyperglycemia) include increased thirst/urination. If these symptoms occur, tell your doctor right away. Your dosage may need to be increased.

    Stop taking this medication and tell your doctor right away if this very serious side effect occurs: lactic acidosis (see Warning section).

    A very serious allergic reaction to this drug is rare. However, get medical help right away if you notice any symptoms of a serious allergic reaction, including: rash, itching/swelling (especially of the face/tongue/throat), severe dizziness, trouble breathing.

    This is not a complete list of possible side effects. If you notice other effects not listed above, contact your doctor or pharmacist.
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    Metoprolol Tartrate :
    50 mg. 2 x daily. Metoprolol is used with or without other medications to treat high blood pressure (hypertension). Lowering high blood pressure helps prevent strokes, heart attacks, and kidney problems. This medication is also used to treat chest pain (angina) and to improve survival after a heart attack.

    SIDE EFFECTS: Drowsiness, dizziness, tiredness, diarrhea, and slow heartbeat may occur. Decreased sexual ability has been reported infrequently.
    ...
    Common side effects may include:
    dizziness, tired feeling;
    depression, confusion, memory problems;
    nightmares, trouble sleeping;
    diarrhea; or.
    mild itching or rash.
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    Hydralazine: Hydralazine is used to treat high blood pressure. Hydralazine is in a class of medications called vasodilators. It works by relaxing the blood vessels so that blood can flow more easily through the body.

    Common side effects include headache, loss of appetite, nausea, vomiting, diarrhea, fast heart rate, and chest pain.
    ...
    You may have severe side effects, such as:
    very low blood pressure (hypotension)
    irregular heart rate.
    headache.
    redness and warmth to your skin (flushing)
    heart attack.
    shock.
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    Jardiance: 12.5 mg 1x Daily JARDIANCE is a prescription medicine used to: lower blood sugar along with diet and exercise in adults with type 2 diabetes. reduce the risk of cardiovascular death in adults with type 2 diabetes who also have known cardiovascular disease.

    Frequent urination, dizziness, or lightheadedness may occur. If any of these effects persist or worsen, tell your doctor or pharmacist promptly. To reduce the risk of dizziness and lightheadedness, get up slowly when rising from a sitting or lying position.
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    Simvastatin:. 20mg 1x daily. Simvastatin is used together with a proper diet to treat high cholesterol and triglyceride (fat) levels in the blood. This medicine may help prevent medical problems (eg, heart or blood vessel problems, heart attacks, or strokes) caused by clogged blood vessels.

    Remember that this medication has been prescribed because your doctor has judged that the benefit to you is greater than the risk of side effects. Many people using this medication do not have serious side effects.

    A very small number of people taking simvastatin may have mild memory problems or confusion. If these rare effects occur, talk to your doctor.

    Rarely, statins may cause or worsen diabetes. Talk to your doctor about the benefits and risks.

    This drug may rarely cause muscle problems (which can rarely lead to very serious conditions called rhabdomyolysis and autoimmune myopathy). Females, older adults, and Chinese people may be at higher risk. Tell your doctor right away if you develop any of these symptoms during treatment and if these symptoms last after your doctor stops this drug: muscle pain/tenderness/weakness (especially with fever or unusual tiredness), signs of kidney problems (such as change in the amount of urine).

    This medication may rarely cause liver problems. If you notice any of the following rare but serious side effects, tell your doctor right away: yellowing eyes/skin, dark urine, severe stomach/abdominal pain, persistent nausea/vomiting.
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    Losartan: Losartan is used alone or together with other medicines to treat high blood pressure (hypertension). High blood pressure adds to the workload of the heart and arteries. If it continues for a long time, the heart and arteries may not function properly.

    Side Effects
    Blurred vision.
    difficult breathing.
    dizziness, faintness, or lightheadedness when getting up suddenly from a lying or sitting position.
    fast or irregular heartbeat.
    nausea or vomiting.
    numbness or tingling in the hands, feet, or lips.
    stomach pain.
    weakness or heaviness of the legs.
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    Amlodipine: 10 mg 1x daily. Amlodipine is used to treat high blood pressure (hypertension) or a certain type of chest pain called angina, a rare form of which is Prinzmetal's or variant angina. In patients with high blood pressure this medicine works by relaxing blood vessels, so that blood passes through them more easily.

    Amlodipine side effects
    swelling of your legs or ankles.
    tiredness or extreme sleepiness.
    stomach pain.
    nausea.
    dizziness.
    hot or warm feeling in your face (flushing)
    irregular heart rate (arrhythmia)
    very fast heart rate (palpitations)
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    Lantus : 20 units 1x daily. Usually before I go to bed.

    Insulin glargine is used with a proper diet and exercise program to control high blood sugar in people with diabetes. Controlling high blood sugar helps prevent kidney damage, blindness, nerve problems, loss of limbs, and sexual function problems. Proper control of diabetes may also lessen your risk of a heart attack or stroke.

    Insulin glargine is a man-made product that is similar to human insulin. It replaces the insulin that your body would normally make. It acts longer than regular insulin, providing a low, steady level of insulin. It works by helping blood sugar (glucose) get into cells so your body can use it for energy. Insulin glargine may be used with a shorter-acting insulin product. It may also be used alone or with other diabetes drugs.

    Lantus Solostar Pen side effects
    rapid weight gain, swelling in your feet or ankles;
    shortness of breath; or.
    low blood potassium--leg cramps, constipation, irregular heartbeats, fluttering in your chest, increased thirst or urination, numbness or tingling, muscle weakness or limp feeling.

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    Tamsulosin: 0.4 mg. 1 x Daily.
    Tamsulosin is used by men to treat the symptoms of an enlarged prostate (benign prostatic hyperplasia-BPH). It does not shrink the prostate, but it works by relaxing the muscles in the prostate and the bladder. This helps to relieve symptoms of BPH such as difficulty in beginning the flow of urine, weak stream, and the need to urinate often or urgently (including during the middle of the night).Tamsulosin belongs to a class of drugs known as alpha blockers.Do not use this medication to treat high blood pressure.

    How to use Tamsulosin HCL

    Read the Patient Information Leaflet if available from your pharmacist before you start taking this medication and each time you get a refill. If you have any questions, ask your doctor or pharmacist.

    Take this medication by mouth as directed by your doctor, usually once daily, 30 minutes after the same meal each day. Swallow this medication whole. Do not crush, chew, or open the capsules.

    The dosage is based on your medical condition and response to treatment.

    Tamsulosin may cause a sudden drop in your blood pressure, which could lead to dizziness or fainting. This risk is higher when you first start taking this drug, after your doctor increases your dose, or if you restart treatment after you stop taking it. During these times, avoid situations where you may be injured if you faint.

    Take this medication regularly to get the most benefit from it. To help you remember, take it at the same time each day.

    If you have not taken this drug for several days, contact your doctor to see if you need to be restarted at a lower dose.

    It may take up to 4 weeks before your symptoms improve. Tell your doctor if your condition does not improve or if it worsens.
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    Pentoxifylline: 3x Daily 400 mg. This medication is used to improve the symptoms of a certain blood flow problem in the legs/arms (intermittent claudication due to occlusive artery disease). Pentoxifylline can decrease the muscle aching/pain/cramps during exercise, including walking, that occur with intermittent claudication. Pentoxifylline belongs to a class of drugs known as hemorrheologic agents. It works by helping blood flow more easily through narrowed arteries. This increases the amount of oxygen that can be delivered by the blood when the muscles need more (such as during exercise) thereby increasing walking distance and duration.

    How to use Pentoxifylline

    Take this medication by mouth with food as directed by your doctor, usually 3 times daily.

    Swallow the tablets whole. Do not crush or chew the tablets. Doing so can release all of the drug at once, increasing the risk of side effects.

    Dosage is based on your medical condition and response to treatment.

    Use this medication regularly in order to get the most benefit from it. To help you remember, take it at the same times each day. Keep taking this medication even if you feel well. Do not stop this medication without consulting your doctor. Improvement in symptoms can occur in 2-4 weeks, but it may take up to 8 weeks to get the full benefit.

    Tell your doctor if your condition lasts or gets worse.

    The most common adverse effect of pentoxifylline is nausea and vomiting. Other common side effects are: Gastrointestinal system: Abdominal discomfort, bloating, and diarrhea. Central nervous system: Dizziness, headache.

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    Aspirin Low-Strength 81 Mg Chewable Tablet:
    1x daily. Aspirin is used to reduce fever and relieve mild to moderate pain from conditions such as muscle aches, toothaches, common cold, and headaches. It may also be used to reduce pain and swelling in conditions such as arthritis. Aspirin is known as a salicylate and a nonsteroidal anti-inflammatory drug (NSAID). It works by blocking a certain natural substance in your body to reduce pain and swelling. Consult your doctor before giving this drug to a child younger than 12 years. It is very important to keep this and all medication out of the reach of children. Aspirin is a common cause of poisoning in children. (See also Overdose section.)Your doctor may direct you to take a low dose of aspirin to prevent blood clots. This effect reduces the risk of stroke and heart attack. If you have recently had surgery on clogged arteries (such as bypass surgery, carotid endarterectomy, coronary stent), your doctor may direct you to use aspirin in low doses as a "blood thinner" to prevent blood clots. Aspirin prevents blood clots by stopping certain blood cells (platelets) from clumping together.

    How to use Aspirin Low-Strength 81 Mg Chewable Tablet

    If you are taking this medication for self-treatment, follow all directions on the product package. If you have any questions, ask your doctor or pharmacist. If your doctor has directed you to take this medication, take it exactly as prescribed.

    Chew the tablet thoroughly before swallowing. This medication may also be crushed or swallowed whole. If stomach upset occurs while you are taking this medication, you may take it with food or milk.

    The dosage and length of treatment are based on your medical condition and response to treatment. Read the product label to find recommendations on how many tablets you can take in a 24-hour period and how long you may self-treat before seeking medical advice. Do not take more medication or take it for longer than recommended unless directed by your doctor. Use the smallest effective dose. Consult your doctor or pharmacist if you have any questions.

    If you are taking this medication for self-treatment of headache, get medical help right away if you also have trouble speaking, weakness on one side of the body, or sudden vision changes. Before using this drug, consult a doctor or pharmacist if you have headaches caused by head injury, coughing, or bending, or if you have a headache with vomiting that is severe or doesn't stop, fever, and stiff neck. These may be signs of serious medical conditions.

    If you are taking this medication as needed (not on a regular schedule), remember that pain medications work best if they are used as the first signs of pain occur. If you wait until the pain has worsened, the medicine may not work as well.

    You should not take this medication for self-treatment of pain for longer than 10 days. You should not use this drug to self-treat a fever that lasts longer than 3 days. In these cases, consult a doctor because you may have a more serious condition. Tell your doctor promptly if you develop ringing in the ears or difficulty hearing.

    If your condition lasts or gets worse (such as new or unusual symptoms, redness/swelling of the painful area, pain/fever that does not go away or gets worse) or if you think you may have a serious medical problem, tell your doctor promptly.
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    My meds per day

  • Osteoarthritis

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    What is it?

    Osteoarthritis is a joint disorder that involves the breakdown of joint cartilage. It may affect any joint in your body. People who have type 2 diabetes have an increased risk of osteoarthritis, likely due to obesity — a risk factor for type 2 diabetes — rather than to the diabetes itself.

    What are the symptoms?

    Osteoarthritis may cause joint pain, swelling and stiffness, as well as loss of joint flexibility or movement.

    How is it treated?

    Treatment involves exercising, maintaining a healthy weight, caring for and resting the affected joint, physical therapy, and medications for pain. Treatment may also include surgery such as knee or hip replacement. Complementary treatments — such as acupuncture and massage — also may be helpful for managing pain.


    so...did I bring this upon myself being overweight most of my life? Could this condition been avoidable had I maintained a proper weight? The article above from the Mayo Clinic seems to say so.

    By the way, today I weigh 207. I've lost about thirty pounds. My last A1C was 6.4 which is a vast improvement from my previous tests. Living down here in the doghouse where I have there's not much food around helps. Being wary of the amount of carbohydrates I intake. I don't have the muscle mass I used to due to my limited physical abilities. But nothing is going to make the cartilage grow back. For that I have to spend the rest of my life in pain.

  • 2022 was a sucky year

    Goodbye Tiger

    2022 sucked because this was the year my osteoarthritis on my left hip gotten really bad. To a point where I am in pain and I am having a hard time walking around.

    What's going on? I say about twenty years ago I began getting stiffness in my left knee. It didn't bother me too much but I also began having a hard time doing my Gung Fu forms.

    A few years later my doctor had me do an x-ray on my knees and said I had arthritis. As the years went on the pain, stiffness was getting worse and worse though I was still able to do things. I began using trekking poles to help me walk better.

    I was in the Chinese New Year parade two years ago before the pandemic with the Chinese Railroad workers group and could barely keep up with the parade unit.

    I went to Utah for the 150th in 2019 and had a hard time walking and standing for long at the event.

    Earlier in the year in March 2022, I took a trip to New York to attend the late Fred Hom's daughter's wedding. Prior to the trip I had a bit of pain and began having a more difficult time walking. I think that was when I began realizing real pain. I was beginning to get the bone on bone pain. Though I was able to still walk a bit.

    I brought it up with the doctor and he realized how stiff my left leg has gotten and ordered x-rays. He found osteoarthritis on my left hip. A condition where the cartilage has worn down on my left hip. I was having more of a hard time walking and experiencing pain.

    The only way out of this was hip replacement surgery which I found out I was not a good candidate for such a procedure due to venous insufficiency. An operation like that would put me at risk of infection and possibly leg amputation or death if the infection got into my bones. After two opinions from orthopedic doctors I cried.

    So...I'm f'd up for the rest of my life.

  • Leland Wong's Roast Pork Recipe

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    Sadly Mariposa Cafe is now only a memory. Mariposa has been closed for over six years by the SF Department of Health and it nver reopened. New Lun Ting cafe has roast pork but nothing compared to the lightly seared taste of Mariposa's roast pork. Here's what I came up with trying to replicate Mariposa Roast Pork;

    Pork; about five lbs. of boneless pork shoulder. With bone will do fine also.

    Seasoning; stab it briskly with a fork for the seasonings to penetrate the pork
    liberally sprinkle with salt, granulated garlic, pepper and vegetable seasoning.

    Give it a good rub.

    Let it sit overnight or at least six hours in the refrigerator.
    Allow pork to return to room temperature after taking it out of the fridge.

    Lightly coat with olive oil.

    Sear; searing gives it a nice outer layer to lock in the flavors of the pork. you can sear the meat on all side in a hot frying pan or in a oven at 450 degrees for 15 minutes, flipping it over and another 15 minutes on the other side.

    Roast; 375 degrees. Flipping it over every 20 minutes or so. It'll take about 90 minutes to two hours depending...I use a thermometer till it reaches an internal temperature of 165 degrees.

    Rest; take it out of the oven when it reaches 165 degrees. Allow for it to rest about fifteen minutes before slicing.

    Gravy; saute chopped onions and garlic in a sauce pan. Separate as much of the fat as you can and scrape the pan drippings into the sauce pan. Heat up the drippings. in a separate bowl mix pillsbury gravy mix powder with about two cups of water and mix well. Slowly add into the sauce pan with drippings while stirring. A few drops of dark soy sauce for coloring.

    Enjoy life.

  • Banned from St. Andrews Food Pantry Accused of Stealing

    Deacon John has banned me from the food pantry at St. Andrew's.

    I usually arrived late to avoid standing in line since I have an arthritic hip that makes standing for long period uncomfortable.

    When I got there no one was there...not even Sonny or Robert or John. The doors were closed. Table of food was left on the out. I thought that everyone was finished for the day and they left the food for anyone to take so I did just that. It was just some plant based Chicken, apples and garlic. I helped myself to the food. I was not the only one. There were three or four other people who showed up and also helped themselves to the food.

    Suddenly deacon John appeared from upstairs. He got pissed off that I took food without my asking him. He was talking shit about me stealing. I explained to him that I thought everyone was finished and it was for us to take. But he didn't want to hear my explanation. I even offered to give everything back. He just said 'get out of here!' John whom is black gave me that ghetto shit. I guess that's life in the hood...people always stealing from you. That's life in the hood.

    The following Wednesday I showed up to get my regular food pantry pick up. John started talking shit and forbid me to get any food. He said I was banned from the food pantry.

    St. Andrew's food pantry is run by one guy. John is seems to be always in a foul mood. He seems to be always power tripping with the food distribution. St. Andrew's is not the only food pantry in the area and there are many food pantries in the city. I'll just have to go to another food pantry. Hopefully on that has convenient parking and handicap friendly.

    I've been going to the food pantry since the pandemic. Being on a limited income and going through these rough times. it's been helpful to get food from the pantry.

  • Two more Meds -- Dragon -- Seasonal Affective Disorder --

    Another two drugs added to my daily repertoire of meds... pentoxifylline supposedly to improve my circulation in my legs. pentoxifylline

    The other is flomax. Flomax .

    That makes 14 meds I take a day.


    Dragon at the empress of China building in sf Chinatown

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    I'm trying to get myself to paint an old dragon head in a Chinatown night.


    With "fall back" standard time I'm in the darkness.

    With "fall back" standard time I'm in the darkness.

    It is fall back time again and I find myself in the darkness again. A depressing darkness. Time to turn on the light box again. These times have been tough with the pandemic, osteoarthritis and personal economic depression. I'm broke and in pain!

    But hey... things are opening up again. The senior centers are beginning to have sit down lunches again in their dining halls.

    Masks are no longer required on buses.

    Is the pandemic over? People are still dying from Covid though.


    At the IMUUR2 Asian American art conference with artist Arlan Huang

    At the IMUUR2 Asian American art conference with artist Arlan Huang

    It was hard to understand what was being said. Too intellectual for me I guess. thanks Linda and Carey Huang for taking me out by there.

    as you know I have a hard time walking and carey had a wheelchair for me and I got pushed in a wheelchair for the first time and it felt good. Carey and I are the same age of 70 and here he's pushing me in a wheelchair. But it goes to show that I need a wheelchair! An electric wheelchair. I need a good rollator walker too. I need to raise some money for to purchase it.